Setting aside my carefree disposition and minding about my blog at length, for once.
I’ve been thinking about my blog’s theme for a while. I like using Cutline: it’s clean, it’s white, and the fonts are just the right size. However, I find the columns too narrow for my tastes, and the small header dimensions leaves a lot to be desired. Not that I’m spoiling for a new header–finding a good base image to work on is difficult in this post-wahtergate blogosphere.
Here’s some stuff I want to do on my blog:
- Get rid of that tag cloud. It’s ugly. Well, that was fast.
- Write an annotated blogroll. This also means that I’ll have to prune out blogs that I don’t really read, or those that have already died, unless you’re IKnight.
- Find a new layout. Or not.
Some day I do want to get my own hosting. Perhaps its time to look for places to set up shop on…
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I’m bothered with my writing voice. I think I’m being too kind, that I’m trying to be as inoffensive to as many readers as possible. Of course that’s impossible–there are always people who will disagree with what I say, but understand that the last thing I want is to be inflammatory. It hurts my post variety a lot, because I do want to write some fun entries that forgo my introspective, wistful style and just be loud and obnoxious, if only occasionally. I’ve always looked up to SDS for his empathic, broad-minded writing, and that’s the kind of style I want to emulate the most–it’s part of my philosophy in my life to always put myself in the shoes of the other person first, especially when things get prickly.
I do feel strongly against some things myself. For instance, I detest Key, and inwardly groan every time its works are talked about. I don’t want to write about it, however, since I don’t write about THE THINGS I HATE in this blog. I probably have too much shame. Or too afraid to face flak, for that matter. Maybe a good deal of bashing something where it’s appropriate is healthy, after all.
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Perhaps its also time for me to talk about my experience with the Aniblog Tournament. A few months ago, my blog was unwittingly (but not unwillingly) pitted into this contest, bracketed against Shinmaru’s UNMEI KAIHEN (now having recently won against the formidable Blogsuki, which I probably would never have managed myself). Now, I found this an opportunity to gauge my blog’s readability to the anime blog-reading demographic, so I set forth to write posts in order to keep my blogging muscles in shape. After all, I didn’t want to disappoint my destined rival.
I was on fire. I didn’t have any real desire to win, I just wanted to know if people would read my entries and like them enough to vote for my blog. I purposely avoided plugging my upcoming bout or asking my readers for votes–this was a battle fought with content, and content alone. Eventually, the fated match came. When the poll was going on, I wrote an entry almost every day, to see if votes would pour in (in retrospect, I should have written much more posts beforehand). With trepidation I checked the match comments to see what people said about my blog.
It wasn’t as bad as I thought. Most commenters approved of my blog, yet they voted in favor of UNMEI KAIHEN (all caps is warranted in here for maximum effect) for its easier accessibility (mecha isn’t really a genre that attracts fans by the dozen nowadays) and post rate. That last one left me with a slight tinge of disappointment with myself, because I have peculiar posting habits that prevent me from churning out meaty entry after meaty entry on a regular basis. I just can’t, and I don’t want to force it–been there, done that, burned out from it.
One thing that I could do, I thought, was broaden more. Yes, I write a lot about mecha because it’s a facet of anime that I know a whole lot about. But too much of something is a bad thing, and I’ve noticed that I fall back on “safe” mecha posts when I want to write a non-mecha post of decent length. Instead of spreading out my horizons, I dig my heels on familiar ground, simply because I’m afraid, or that I think I can’t quite do it (writing non-mecha posts).
I’m reminded of one memorable line in Patlabor 2: The Movie:
Noa is arguably the ultimate mechhead in the entire mecha genre, but even she has her somber moments. Do I want my blog to be “just another anime blog that talks about mecha”? Surely, like Noa, I want to show some other part of myself to other people. Continuing World must continue evolving.
To end this tirade, I resolve to write more about the aspects of anime that don’t involve robots and stuff. Music, fanart, anime fandom here in the Philippines, what have you.
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Oh, and yeah, happy birthday to me. If you’re going to comment, tell me what you think about this blog as well. I’d appreciate it.