Continuing World

Slower, But Steadier


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I turned 24.

I think I’ve slowed down as an anime fan. Back when I was in university, I used to marathon anime on a regular basis. The feeling of having finished multiple series in a week is exhilarating, no matter how you put it. But now, I’ve come to accept that I can’t really do that anymore. Oh, I could, if I forced myself to. But what’s the fun in that?

Instead, I’ve started to think. Instead of immediately going for the next episode, I stop to reflect on what I just watched. Why do I think this is a good thing? Well, it simply makes the time I spent on watching anime more meaningful. If you just saw something really, really good, why would you hurry on to the next thing?

Anime has become less of a compulsion for me, now that I’ve seen most of the things I wanted to watch. It’s kinda funny, mind you. I know what I like. I’ll just go ahead and watch them. I see something that I may like? Fine. Later, then. It’s not going to disappear, and I don’t want to be that guy on his deathbed, gravely regretting that he never gave Angel Beats a chance.

Anime is cartoons. This much is true.

Another thing I’ve steadily picked up interest on is the animation side of anime. I mean, people watch anime because the moving pictures are pretty, or move prettily. I’ve found the content in blogs like Ani no Miyako and The Vanishing Trooper Incident to be very enlightening, and I can see myself reading up on animators as much as I do on seiyuu in the near future.

There’s also this bit of becoming a better human being.

These two years, I’ve talked to people willingly, far more than I’ve had before. This allows me a peek into the minds of people very much different from myself. As I internalize how or why they look at the world in their own way, I’ve learned to become more sensitive and open to fellow fans. After all, everyone has their own story. I’ve learned not to judge people too harshly for their tastes in anything. People aren’t to be segregated into right or wrong–they’re people, period. Years ago I wouldn’t be able to hold a friendly conversation with a Gundam SEED Destiny fanboy, but now I can without batting an eyelash!

I want to become an anime fan who empowers other anime fans, and not shit on them or what they like. I’m no longer a teen, so there’s no need to feel so angry. Or powerless, since that’s where butthurt comes from. Instead of talking down on what I don’t like, I’ve been trying to present what I like to others whom I think would cherish them. Recommending is tricky, and failure is never far away, but I feel best about myself when people come back up to me and say, “Wow! I watched the anime you told me about and it was so awesome!”

I’m a lot less willing to “win” in Internet arguments now. Becoming older gives you less patience for that kind of juvenile shit. The xkcd comic about Wrong Things On the Internet has much less sway on me now. Less patience is actually a good thing. I enjoy my life better when I follow the things that I really like, and discard the things that hold little or no value to me. As I can only spend limited time on my hobbies, I’m more encouraged to maximize them. Arguing on the Internet? Not really maximizing.

Last, I’ve learned to drop anime! (Thanks, Black Rock Shooter.) It feels really good, once you’ve put something out of your mind. If you’re in doubt whether you should continue a show, then just drop it. After all, it’s not really going anywhere. You can pick it up anytime! Just put it off your mind for now.

That’s it for now. See you soon.